Well i know im in the dog house for not posting in a while, just somthing that always got pushed back :-/ well im here now, and i just want to say its been bumpy the last few weeks, between me and tistal, and each of us in our own ways, wheter its her and her classes/jobs, or my certs. Im not complaining and i understand the sitution and the short tempers from both sides. But just wanted to say im not doing nothing about it, im working on things, and tistal has a tendacncey to blow things out of purportion when it comes to me sometimes. Though she doesnt always. Just wanted to tell her i was sorry and that i love her... And that i hope we can continue on the path we are going making things better again. btw thought this song fit the moment atleast the way i feel... maybe the way she feels to im not her though... so maybe she will comment on that.


Yellowcard - Only One

"Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason

I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one

Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone

And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one who gets me like you do
You are my only my only one

Here I go so dishonestly
Leave a note for you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one, no one like you
You are my only, my only one
My only one
My only one
My only one
You are my only, my only one"

love u tistal

-ebbie

I'll take you inside, take a shower with you, rub where you ache, use you to my advantage, and then let you sleep on my bed while I work on homework.


I thought I was giving him a good option

-tistal

I deleted the last two entries. they were cynical and mean. they went against the rules ebbie and i created; therefore, i deleted them.

i hope things work out and we get back together. I am miserable without him.

-tistal

I miss you ebbie. Today and last night has been the longest twenty four hours for me. I didn't sleep very much last night. It's hard to sleep when you're very upset. I've spent the majority of the day in tears. Ebbie bear says you're in trouble if he has to come home to you he says *you were warned* kinda in the same tone Foamy does when he threatens to kill with a toaster. I miss you. I couldn't get to sleep even when I tried. Things just don't feel right unless there's that .00000000000000000000000000002% chance I might wake up in the morning with you holding me. I miss the way you call me stinky, and I miss picking on you. I'm sorry we fight, and I'm sorry I'm so hot tempered, but sometimes you're stubborn *sticks out tongue* I just want things to start being right now so later things will already be right when there are other things going on. *I know I"m talking in riddles* by the way, I still know it was you who put the scratch on my stabbing westward cd through the whole corse of the best depressing song *shakes fist* I love you, and I want to make things work with us, but at the same time I'm not intrested in waiting until us to move in together for me not to be miserable with us. I'm sorry I'm not always the best tempered person when I'm trying to get my angry point across. I miss you stinky

-tistal

After 4 years, countless i love yous and argements. We have been through alot both of us have fought for our causes and one or the other always consedes defeat after a few hours last night things werent looking good... after a few mins were we both walked away things calmed down. I want to tell tistal that im sorry, and i want to work on the things that have bothered here, recently or in the past. Though some things wont happen over night Im goin to work on some of her peeves about me so things are easier on her. Anyway i love you snuggles and im goin to work on things for us.

-ebbie